Days 4 & 5: 100 Happiest Days

 Happiness is hard work. Happiness is providence that only the Lord can provide. My heart was opened to these truths through these verses: 

25 Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?

 26 Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?

 27 Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature?

 28 And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin:

 29 And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.

 30 Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?

 31 Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?

 32 (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.

 33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

 34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the dayis the evil thereof.

If we take the time to truly consider the tender mercies shown daily by a loving Father in Heaven, we will realize that just as he tends to the lilies of the fields, Oh how He has a desire to provide and care for us. We need to trust in that devotion He feels, and show that same devotion in return. 

Finding joy in the journey, 

Calli

Day 3: 100 Happiest Days

Dear Journal, 
  
  Today I found another reason to be happy. Today I am happy to have a roof over my head. I am happy to have a warm place to sleep, and to live. I think there are many times in life that we take for granted the things that we have, the little knicks and knacks that we use in our homes daily, that others may not have the great fortune of having. I am always reminded of these things when I watch one of my favorite films: The Blind Side. The true story of a boy who had lost everything, and the woman who had the courage to give him everything she had; most importantly her love. There are many moments in life that knock us down flat, that attack us from our blind side. But it is imperative to remember that hope is not lost; tomorrow is another day, and it is worth fighting for. 

  Courage. I am also grateful for the moments that require the most courage. Quoted again from my favorite film, Michael Oher said: 

"Courage is a hard thing to figure. You can have courage based on a dumb idea or mistake, but you're not supposed to question adults, or your coach or your teacher, because they make the rules. Maybe they know best, but maybe they don't. It all depends on who you are, where you come from. Didn't at least one of the six hundred guys think about giving up, and joining with the other side? I mean, valley of death that's pretty salty stuff. That's why courage it's tricky. Should you always do what others tell you to do? Sometimes you might not even know why you're doing something. I mean any fool can have courage. But honor, that's the real reason for you either do something or you don't. It's who you are and maybe who you want to be. If you die trying for something important, then you have both honor and courage, and that's pretty good. I think that's what the writer was saying, that you should hope for courage and try for honor. And maybe even pray that the people telling you what to do have some, too."

Happiness is having gratitude for the simplest of things in life. Happiness is daring to have courage and honor when it matters most. Thank you for inspiring me, Michael. 

Finding joy in the Journey, 
Calli

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Day 2: 100 Happiest Days

Dear Journal, 
   Day 2 reminded me just how truly blessed I am to live in a country where I can exercise my religious beliefs freely. I am grateful for a God in Heaven who loves me, and is always there. I l know that He is very aware of me, and that I am His daughter. I am most thankful today for the power of prayer. Life sometimes feels like there is fog or a haze on the path ahead of us, blocking our vision to where we need to go next. Many of us may feel lost or alone in these moments, but the power of faith and prayer is the answer to life's most "lost" moments. 

 On the long car ride to Rexburg, we experienced over 8 hours of constant rain and occasional fog. Most of this time, it was near to impossible to see anything ahead of you other than the small amount of road that our headlights illuminated. There were several moments where the road conditions seemed hazardous, and we questioned if we would make it to our destination in safety. How similar this scenario is to our everyday lives. Many of us are facing a heavy rain, or a fog, that is blocking our view from the road ahead, and our potential. But we need not fear. In life's hardest moments, we can pray to a loving God in Heaven. A Heavenly Father who promises to comfort us in our time of need, and promises that if we but only have faith and follow Him, we will be lead safely home. 

Happiness is a loving Heavenly Father. Happiness is the ability to commune with Him through prayer. 
Finding Joy in the Journey,
Calli

My 100 Happiest Days: Day 1

Dear Journal, 
Today was the first of my 100 Happiest days. It started out very emotional,  saying goodbye to my dad as he dropped Trent and I off in Rexburg. But as he left town he sent me a text message with some of the most profound words I've heard in a while: "Take a moment each day to enjoy what life has to offer. Time is such a thief." It hit me then and there just how fast my childhood flew by, and how quickly I have come to this point in my life. Yet, it was in that moment that I realized how truly blessed I am to be alive, and to have been raised by a family who has endlessly encouraged me to be the best that I can be, and to chase my dreams. Tonight, nothing makes me more happy than knowing how much I love my family, my husband,and the incredible family who reared him up to be the man that he is today. Happy is family. Happy is living every moment to the fullest. And happy is successfully assembling our Ikea bed frame after hours of interpreting Swedish diagrams. :) 
Finding joy in the journey, 
Calli

Life as Mr & Mrs Rasmussen

WARNING: This post is very long winded. Anyone actually sane enough to read it all..bless you!

So wow.. it's been a while since I've written. I'm not exactly sure how I'm supposed to cram this all into one post, But believe you me,I will! When last I wrote, Trent and I were still engaged and in the thick of the wedding plans. 

   Well folks.. that wedding HAPPENED! And not in any way shape or form that I imagined it, might I add! This tale was an adventure all it's own! About a week before the big day, the weather forecast predicted rain. I had a hard time believing it, since the weather every day previous was in the 90's. "I call you a bluff, weather man!" Is what I kept thinking to myself. But as well all know... when it rains.. it POURS! 

 The wedding day was filled with rain and hail, but the elements couldn't compete with the laughs, the smiles, the tears of joy, and the memories that were made. Not many brides can say that she got to rock rain boots and umbrellas with her wedding gown. Not many brides get to say that they whizzed through the Pete's Fish and Chips drive through for lunch only to be greeted by hail and endless laughter with her photo entourage and new groom! The big day, came in a way that was a complete surprise. 

  I had no way of telling that it would turn out the way it did, but I wouldn't change that day for ANYTHING. That day, I married my best friend. And every day with him has been a gift, just leading us down the path of Eternity.

Following the wedding, Trent and I got to go to California for our Honeymoon!!

We got to go to Disneyland, and also spend some time down at our favorite California spot, Balboa Island. We were very blessed to have such a great time, and enjoy spending time with each other at long last, as

Husband.and.Wife.

A lot of people will tell you that once you leave your "Honeymoon phase" that life starts to get really interesting. Now I know that Trent and I have only been married for 5 months now, and that we're not exactly "seasoned veterans" but I do know 

that no matter what life throws your way,

ANYTHING is POSSIBLE

with your eternal companion and the Lord on your side.

In marriage there are many days and nights where all you have is the chance to drop to your knees in supplication to a loving Father in Heaven, and to hold on to your sweetheart with everything that you have.

These are the moments that mold you, and bring you closer to who we strive to become. 

Cleaning, cooking, laughing, hugging, smiling, kissing, snuggling, movies, talking, growing, loving.. catching a glimpse of Heaven in someone else's eyes. 

These are the moments that take your breath away, and remind you why we are here. To live to the fullest potential and measure of 

our creation. 

In more recent news, Trent is just a week out from debuting at the Hale Theater, in Little Women, the Musical. He will be playing the role of John Brooke, and we couldn't be more excited for this opportunity!He a also just recently found out that he will begin training as a full time service adviser at the Henry Brown GMC dealership in Gilbert. He is so excited for this opportunity and we couldn't be more thankful!

As for me, I am thrilled to start working towards entrance into the Bachelor of Arts program at ASU with my emphasis in Voice. Starting up lessons again with the incredible Mr Marc Denton!


Trent and I are so grateful for the life that we are building together, and for this beautiful world that we live in. And now..full speed ahead!

All the Single ladies, All the Single ladies!

To my dear single ladies out there, I've been thinking over the past few days how Valentine's Day is coming up. For some it is an exciting day, and for others, some fear it with a sad heart. I would like to reach out to anyone who may find themselves feeling this way on the Eve of Valentines. If I may, I wish to speak freely. Regardless of who you are, where you come from, where you live, and where you are going, I believe that you as a woman have a worth that is beyond anything that this world has to offer. Today, the world would have us believe that beauty is solely based on wealth, fortune, fame, and physical attractiveness. I know that this is not so. I know that inside each and every woman is a light. A light that burns within us, and yearns for us to reveal it. This light is one that contains more power than one can really know. I believe that many women today choose not to seek this light, because they fear just how powerful it truly is. They turn to worldly fashions and notions, and seek to replace the light with something that cannot be found. I believe that this light has the ability to change lives. It has the ability to light the darkness. It has the ability to console and to bring forth miracles in a world of confusion and fear. This light.. is kindness. This light, is laughter. This light, is virtue. This light, is love. This light, is truth. When one realizes their possession within of this light, they will start to realize a change in everything. A new day will be sought as a brand new opportunity to make this flame burn brighter. Each day, will bring joy and optimism amidst a world of difficulty. This light will speak to the heart, and reminds us of the infinite worth we hold as women. I would like to reach out to anyone who may feel sad, alone, downtrodden, forgotten, or discouraged. I believe that you can do anything that you put your mind to. I believe that dreams do come true, and that you can obtain absolutely anything if you are willing to work hard to get there. I also believe that you are never truly alone. I believe that you are a daughter of a loving God in heaven, and that He is very aware of your circumstances. I believe that prayers are answered, and that there is no where that faith can't take us. I know that miracles are real, and that I have witnessed them with my own eyes. To those who are waiting for Mr right: Do NOT give up hope. The world would like to convince us that if we do not have the perfect man in our life at this very moment, that our days our futile. The world would LOVE for us to give up, and to lose sight of our goals. But I say again, DO NOT give up. DO NOT give in. There is ALWAYS hope, and hope will always find a way if we allow it to shine through. I believe in happy endings. I believe that each and every one of you are royal, a daughter of a Heavenly King, and are intended to be treated as such. My sweet sisters, I plead for you to not settle for anything less than a man who treats you like the princess. YOU are a woman of infinite worth, and the man of your dreams will be the one who will never let you forget. No matter the trials, no matter the difficulties, your dreams are always on the horizon. A quote from one of my favorite musicals says simply, "If you reach for the stars, all you get are the stars. But, if you reach for the heavens, you get the stars thrown in." Don't ever stop reaching for the heavens. One day you will be surprised to look down at your hand and see stardust falling from your fingertips. Life is a beautiful thing. As a great man once said, we cannot simply wait for life to hand us our golden ticket. Our moment, is now. Our time, is now. Let us not delay in loving life, and most of all finding love for ourselves. To my sweet friends do not forget to love. Happy Valentine's day. All my heart, Calli

Suddenly

Suddenly I see Suddenly it starts Can two anxious hearts Beat as one? Yesterday I was alone Today you walk beside me Something still unclear Something not yet here Has begun. Suddenly the world Seems a different place Somehow full of grace Full of light. How was I to know That so much hope Was held inside me? What has passed is gone Now we journey on Through the night. How was I to know at last That happiness can come so fast? Trusting me the way you do I’m so afraid of failing you Just a child who cannot know That danger follows where I go There are shadows everywhere And memories I cannot share Nevermore alone Nevermore apart You have warmed my heart Like the sun. You have brought the gift of life And love so long denied me. Suddenly I see What I could not see Something suddenly Has begun.

Some serious catch up.. and a Happy New Year! :)

Dear Journal, So much has happened since the last time I've written! Holy Cannoli! I should probably start with THE MOST important bit of news that I have from the past few months.....

I am getting married to my best friend!!!!!!!!!! The man of my dreams :) There are not enough words to express how much I love this man. So I suppose that I will spare the readers! Hee hee. However, I will include the details for how he popped the question! It was November the 16th. Trent told me that he wanted to celebrate our five months of dating in a proper way, so he told me that we were going to dinner. Macaroni Grill! YUM! Man knows one of the pathways to my heart is some good eatin. Hehehe. On the way to dinner, we had a funny little moment together. His phone rings and he answered quickly. "Hello?" suddenly I hear the bouncy little voice of one of my best friends. I can't make out the words, but I can definitely tell that I knew whose voice it was! Trent hangs up and I smile and say "Who was that?" He doesn't skip a beat when he replies, "Uh, Jeff!" I tried to contain my urge to giggle when I said "Jeff has an awfully high voice, babe!" Trent just smiled and said, "Yep. He sure does!" It was a priceless moment in time that I will never forget. ;) So we proceed on to the restaurant, and have a great time. Ran into the Moffats, which is always a pleasant surprise! After Dinner, we found ourselves at the San Tan mall. It was nice and chilly out which makes for nice snuggling weather. ;) He grabbed me by the hand and led me to Build a bear workshop. You can't tell ME that teddy bears are just for kids! We had so much fun watching my bear get stuffed with fluffy goodness and going through the silly little heart ritual. Kinda creepy actually, if you really think about it. But tender none the less because we both placed our own separate little hearts inside the bear. It wasn't until later that night that I realized just how symbolic it was for two hearts to become one. <3 After the mall, I had no idea where we were going next! He slyly said, "Oh, did I not mention where we are going next?!" (Little butt munch!) Me: "yahh.......no. Uh, no." So he then smiles even bigger and says "Well I guess you'll just have to find out then!" (Oh, geez! We're gonna die!) We end up going to one of the club house in Power Ranch, other wise known as the Barn. This is where we had talked about having our wedding reception! I got tingles on the inside.. the thought of actually having my reception at that location with him was such a big dream of mine. We walked around the gorgeous lake that was lit with beautiful lights. The night was bright, but it was VERY cold! Poor Trenton tried so hard to make small talk, but unfortunately I was freezing my little tail off so my words were all jumbled! For example: "The stars are so bright tonight! Cal, we should come back and go star gazing sometime!".... "Ya..yyyyy..yea.yyyy...yaugh.....yes..yah!" We came around the bend to a little bench, where Trent seized the opportunity :) We sat down and he said "Here, let's try and warm you up." My teeth continued to chatter! He put his arms around me, and cuddled me close. He could still feel me shivering in his arms. A moment later, he whispered "Here, maybe this will warm you up..." As he pulls away, I look up to see him sliding off of the bench and down on to one knee. Before he even asked the question... I could sense something eternal in his eyes. It was something that I couldn't deny or ever dare to run away from. The next few words out of his mouth I remember exactly. But those simple words aren't what truly make the story what it is. It's the warm tears that welled up in my eyes, as I knew that I was looking at the man who I would be sharing forever with. This moment, this feeling, is what I had been waiting for my whole life. And it had finally happened. I had found him :)

From there on, Life has been sweet. There may have been little trials along the way til now, but what is life without our trials? Without our ups and downs? It would be pretty bland. I'm trying to learn quickly what it takes to plan a wedding. I'm finding out that it is a LOT of work and that I need to get on the wagon and get things done. But luckily I have things like Pinterest to keep my ideas flowing. And thank goodness for amazing people like my mama who keep me pushing towards success! My sister's wedding dress is here at my house, just waiting for me to try it on. I've always dreamed about trying on her dress but never thought I would actually get the chance to. If it fits, there is a good chance that I may wear it. It's a breathtaking dress that looks like the bride has just stepped out of a fairytale. And when it comes to me and Trent, nothing describes our personalities and love more than stepping out of a fairytale in to real life.

Well, ever since I've been out of school you could say that I'm trying to embrace the work-a-holic side of me. Me and Trent will need the money to survive, and to be completely honest I'm finding myself enjoying it. I'm getting to the point where I feel accomplished at the end of the work day because I feel like I've gotten so much done. Now if only I could feel just as accomplished with my wedding planning. Let the games begin! I have decided that I am not going back to school this semester, so that me and Trent can start to save some money and put it away for a rainy day.. or rent. ;) Take your pick. I have an idea in mind of when I would like to finish school and what degree I would like to earn.. but we will see what the Lord has in store for me.

I wake up every morning hoping that I will be able to let the light of faith burn bright in my life. I guess there are moments where I think that I can take matters into my own hands and do it all on my own.. but that's when life hands you a slice of humble pie and gets you back down on your knees praying to our loving Heavenly Father. I know that His gospel is true, and that it is our ultimate key to happiness. I am so grateful that the man I'm marrying served a full time mission and for the strength and endurance and faith which he exemplifies every day in my life. He is truly the best, and I pray that every day I can work hard to deserve to have him around. I love him with all my heart. Here's to working hard and making a difference. Until next time, Journal. :) All my love, Calli

Abundance, Charity, and Goodwill Toward Men!

Hello All, The title of this blog post does not only encompass the name of the solo which I will be singing in the musical production coming up in my life, but more importantly, is my overall desire and hopes for this crazy stupid world we live in! Life is crazy. In so so so many ways. I don't even know where to start. The recent re-election of president Obama came quickly and suddenly and I realize that most of those around me are struggling for optimism, and solid ground. It's funny to me.. how everyone is freaking out. I understand that things have been hard the past four years, and that there were some decisions made legally that were questionable. But in the end, Heavenly Father's will was done concerning what needed to happen at this point in time. It's simply our job to hold our heads high and to keep moving. We're in for a lot of crazy things over the next four years I imagine.. but we can't let down now. Now, more than ever, we have to realize that it's time for us to bring our A-game and follow the commandments more fervently than ever before. We can't afford to get lazy and complain. I realize that I already made this statement on Facebook, but I say one more time as did President Thomas S. Monson, "The future is as bright as our faith." We need not fear. Everything will come around in the end.

Alright, next topic! So... school is crazy! I'm still trying to stay afloat in theory and do my very best in all that I do. The Christmas Carol is coming along just swimmingly. Yes, I said swimmingly. Hahaha! Man, I am such a freak about being in theatrical productions! I can't describe how much I love being in them. Once I am dedicated, I am dedicated for good. I've been working hard in the costume shop this week, and can't wait for the polished and finished product! Here is a little sneak peak, I play a sandwich board man at the beginning of the show before I get all Ghosty. I love it, personally. I'm a nerd.

We open three weeks from tomorrow, I can hardly believe it! What's next on the agenda, do you ask? Well.. a lot of things. Let's take it one step at a time. First off.. me and Trent have been ring shopping at a frequent rate lately. Crazy! I feel too young for this! And on Friday... is our five month anniversary for dating! I can't believe that it has flown by so quickly. I love that boy with all my heart, and I have loved every single moment that we've shared together. <3

Next! Once the Christmas Carol is over, I am on to a new stage adventure! I plan to audition for Legally Blonde the Musical with Queen Creek performing arts. I can't even begin to explain how much I love this production. AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is one of my all time favorite shows, which I did get to see at gammage when it came through, and can't wait to see again one day! The show is going to go up in the time period of rehearsals beginning at the end of November, and going up in January. So fast! I can't wait though. And luckily, it will be over before the semester even really begins. As Meg Clifford once said, "This show is like pink cocaine!" I can't get enough. :)

Once Legally Blonde has ended, the semester will have begun shortly after. In reality.. a semester of school won't really be starting for me. I have decided to work full time for my parents down at GMS, and I am hoping to save and store away some monies. I am so thrilled to take time to do personal things that I need and love without having to worry about the homework. HALLELUJAH! I am planning to continue taking voice lessons, but more than likely from a new source than I have been. I am waiting to see if I can budget enough, but I am hoping to take private vocal coaching from a well to do professional voice over, screen, and stage, actress. I am becoming very serious about my performing, and I have big goals. My next mountain to climb you ask?...

That's right kids.... I aspire to be hired on with Disney to perform in the Magic Kingdom. I think about my childhood and how much I loved it, and how somehow I have managed to never lose that light in my life. I think of how much I love to perform, and how much I love putting a smile on the faces of others. I aspire to perform in one of my favorite places on earth, and to bring joy to others. It may be a long road, but I intend to be there one day. One step at a time. Well Journal, this has been quite a wordy post. But it has been quite some time, and I needed to get it all out! Life is sweet, and I know that with faith, it will only get better. I am so grateful for all of my many blessings, and give thanks to my Heavenly Father and my Savior, Jesus Christ. Without them, I would be nothing. All my love, Calli

September in Review!

Hey there Journal, It's been a few weeks! But that's okay. I'm just hoping to update you real quick on what's been going on. Probably one of the most exciting things on my agenda is that I have been cast in.....

I am very grateful to announce that I will have the joy of playing Ghost of Christmas Present. I'm kinda obsessive about how excited I am for this opportunity!! In summary my character is sassy American who knocks some sense into Mr. Scrooge. I cant wait to belt it out and do my best. Ah! In other news, I'm just chugging along in school and trying my very hardest to pass theory. I've been going to see the tutor frequently and I am really happy to say that it is helping out a lot and that I am working up the chain to getting an awesome grade in the class. The proof is real :)

Other than that, I've been trying to work hard and just enjoying time with the people I love. We went to the D-Backs game last night and the boys kicked the Cubs, 8-3! Way to go, dudes!!!! In closing, don't ever forget that the gospel is true, and that Heavenly Father is always listening. He is always ready to answer our prayers, but far too many of us won't even take the time to ask. But once we do, he answers in His own way and time without fail. I know this to be true. All my love, Calli

Three Months of Bliss!

Dear Journal, Not only is today Sunday, one of my personal favorite days of the week, but today also marks three months that me and Trent have been dating. I can hardly believe it! Granted, he was in St Louis for about a month and a half of that time because of his summer job, but the fact still remains that I thought about him every day that he was gone and not a second went by where I wasn't thinking about wanting to be by his side. Ever since he has been home, life hasn't been perfect, but it has become glorified and that much sweeter. I rather enjoy the feeling of realizing that when it comes to relationships that you will never ever find yourself a perfect person to be with. You may be perfect for each other, but you are still both human and completely vulnerable to make mistakes. Perhaps the greatest joy I have found, however, is being able to care about someone and in turn have them care about me even through the mistakes, and the screw ups, and the ups and downs.

Haha this picture is from a lake trip that we went on recently. Trent was definitely the toughest guy there, hands down, and kicked some butt on tube wars. Although, he found himself alone on a tube that was quickly deflating and I was horrified to see him beat around the water as the tube folded up like a taco around him! But did he let go? Nah! He's too tough for that. In other news, I don't mean to toot my own horn but I just wanted to put in writing somewhere that me and my mother were the two who popped right up on the wakeboard and showed all the guys how it was done! Ahhh yeah. There were a few high school boys on the boat with us and I kid you not they were pulled about three times (not making it out of the water) then they would throw their hands in the air and say "I'm done! I'm done!" Now, before you call me hypercritical, I am all for trial and error. That's how you learn! However, they only tried about three times, then gave up! "Pansies!" I muttered under my breath. ;) Edison tried about a thousand times to make a light bulb. Success takes consistency!

Haha this picture just exemplifies the idea that we have way too much fun together. Everyone says that a picture is worth a thousand words, so I best give the story behind these ones, because there are about 3,000 words unspoken right about now! Trent had a job interview and didn't want to make a bad impression with scruff on his chinny chin chin! So I sat on his bathroom counter and giggled while he started to look like Santa Clause and then progressing to a Tony Stark look, then finally being smooth "Like a baby's behind!" {Oscar, anyone?} Anywho, the moral to the story is that life doesn't have to perfect, but that you can find perfect happiness, just as long as you know where to find it. Happy Sunday, and don't forget that with God, anything is possible. {That's what I keep telling myself thinking about the theory hw I have to do..} And as I leave you, take this scripture with you and may it give you courage: Ezra 10:4 "Arise; for this matter belongeth unto thee: We will also will be with thee: Be of good courage, and do it." All my love Journal, Cal

I'm Alive!!!!

Ten thousand yeaaaaarrrrssss! Can give you such a crick in the neck! No, it has only been just over a year. But that is still a very long time to not post a darn thing! So here we go! Dear September 8, 2012: It is seriously incredible to look at life in one year, and examine it and see how much it has changed the world around you, and most importantly how it has changed you as a person. This past year threw a lot of twists and turns and ups and downs and all arounds. There were times where all I could do was hold on for dear life, and hope that I would be able to make it through, even if I had my eyes squeezed shut just like on a roller coaster,or had my hands in the air while I screamed. This past year has taught me more than I could possibly put into words in one post. I only hope that even a fragment of what I have learned will be reflected in what I write from now on. A very wise woman once said that "Girls are poison until they are about 20." I think she was right! It's incredible thinking about how much I have learned about myself in the past few years, and feeling like now I can take on the world in a much more positive and optimistic way. Watch out world, this 20 year old has a grip on who she is. Here I come! This past year saw a lot of great times. I was in a few different shows, per the normal routine for me, my favorite production having to be Little Women. I found myself very blessed to have the opportunity to play the role of Beth, and in turn learn a lot of life lessons about the way we look at life, and the capability to love and serve others with all of our hearts. I'm not much of a reader, but music has clearly been something that always speaks to me. So when I found out that Little Women was now a musical, I couldnt wait to hear the music and see the story brought to life. Without fail, I fell in love with the story and lived every moment of the run of that show to the very end. I still carry the message and lessons that I learned in my heart.

In more recent news, (Though anyone who knows me knows that it is not particularly news), this past summer a dear friend of mine set me up and put me on a date with a returned missionary who was just fresh home off of his mission. She texted me and said, "Calli, I know who your future husband is!" and I replied, "Oh good! I'd love for you to clue me in! When do I meet him?" Within a few days, me and this mystery man made contact over the phone with one another, and the rest is history. We were set up on one date, and after only a few hours, we were toast. We were hooked. We were sunk. However you want to say it! Out of all of the things that I could say about this man..one of the first things that comes to mind is that he is pretty much a genetic copy of me, only man sized! I have people come up to me daily saying "You know, you two are freakishly alike!" And I just smile and say, "I know. Believe me, I know" :)

Trenton, (Oh yes, that's his name! Silly me!) has changed my life completely. I wake up every morning and think about just how lucky I am to have him in my life, and find myself wanting to be the very best person that I can be because of his impact on me. I know that we have a loving Heavenly Father who is very aware of us, and I know that he never intended for us to be alone. I know that he blesses us with guardian angels both seen and unseen, and gives us help all along the way. He is always with us and is calling to us to come unto him and to trust Him. All we have to do, is listen. Thanks for listening, Journal. - Cal

Wow.. it's been almost a year!

I was a few months out from overlapping my last blog post with a post that was a whole year later! As you can see, a LOT of time has passed since last I wrote. And what an adventure and a ride it has been!

I completed my first year of college. One thing i regret is that I thought for sure I could just get by in college the way i did in some of my high school work. But oh, how wrong I was. I still came out with decent grades, but my feeling of accomplishment was very low. I knew that this next year needed to be better. It needed to be a time where I truly strived to be successful and hard working, rather than the feeling of barely surviving. :) I know that through this next school year, that if I stay close to my Savior, that anything is possible and that He will help me make it through all the rigorous things that will be required of me. If there is one thing that I have learned from about my 10th grade year, is that when you take time for Heavenly Father by reading your scriptures before your homework, that you will be immensely blessed, and your homework will run so much more smoothly. I am very excited for the opportunity to work hard this year, and make up for lost time.

So many people have changed my life in the past year. I can't even thank them all. Within this past year, I was called to be a Beehive advisor. I was so terrified at first to think that I would be teaching, but once I let go of my doubts and fears, I fell in love with my calling. And now I cherish it with all my heart. How grateful I am for the examples who have blessed my life in the young womens program. Whether it be leaders whom I was taught by when i was a young woman, or leaders who i now work with, they have helped to mold and shape me into the person I am today, and the testimony which I live for. I'm so grateful for people like Julie and Sheree who have been leaders even since I was still in the Yw's program and for the example they've been to me in my life. How grateful I also am to all the other leaders who have been so kind to me, and have taught me so much. Kasey, Carol, Becky, Shelly, Heather, and of course Alyson... you all amaze me and I appreciate the love you show in all that you do.



It has been a year of struggles. But when do we all not have struggles? However, this year the struggles were more prominent and cutting in my life. How grateful I am for those struggles which I faced, and for the opportunity I have had to turn to my Savior, Jesus Christ, and feel of His embrace and the realization that he is always there. I am so grateful for those who have come into my life this year and have changed everything. Those who have been examples to me in all that they do. I live in a family that never fails to be examples for me, and keep me going in the right direction. I am so grateful to my friends,particularly my Lindy Lou. What would I have done without you this past year, my friend? Thank you for your love and support and for all of the things which we went through together.



I am in the midst of interning for summer musical theater workshops for kids ranging from grades 5-12. How grateful I am for the oppotunity which I have had so far to learn to meet so many young people and find what it means to truly love them like they are your own. So many of these children in the first session stole my entire heart, and Im not sure if they will ever give it back. It is simply amazing how much you can grow to love a child in such a short amount of time. Although most of them were taller than me, I met some teens who I will never forget. They have kinda become adoptive younger sisters, and I cant wait to keep in touch with them and watch where their lives take them. Here are some of the kids who I got to work with. :)

Addy, Chan Chan, and Maddy


Sophie and Alli. Me and Alli had a special bond because our names are exactly the same except that mine starts with a "C" of course. :)


Group of girls who i got to tell all my crazy stories to!

Ahhh! This girl stole my heart once we discovered we have the same undying love for all things little mermaid.. and Prince Eric of course :) How I will miss my Laynee.

Life is rough at times, but all the times of darkness are WORTH IT in order to bring forth the light out of obscurity. It's good to be back, I hope to keep on top of posting this year! Over and out, my friends!

Startin fresh!

Today we had a special stake conference with a member of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles, Elder Quentin L. Cook. It was pretty darn amazing! The topics were wonderful, and I really got a lot out of it. It really made me realize how our time here is so short, and how we cant afford to just sit back and be lazy and not fill our time with worthwhile things. After conference today, I just wanted to go out and love others. We talked a lot about having bowels that are filled with compassion. Our stake president made sure to excuse himself in front of Elder Cook for talking about bowels in stake conference :p hehehehehe. Pres. Smith actually defined the definition of the "bowels" which they refer to in the scriptures. And he described it as emotion that derives from the very essence of you. Emotions that arise from the depths of your soul. So having bowels that are filled with compassion and charity, means loving others from the depths of your soul, and loving them from the very essence of who you are. We are commanded to show this love to all of our neighbors. Not just those who share fence lines with us, but everyone who we come in contact with.
I realize more and more every day that taking the time to love others, and to have charity, is what ultimately makes me the happiest. There is nothing else that can replace that feeling in my heart when I take the time to care. So I guess if you're reading this right now, and have taken the time to read this far, that I ask you this. Please take more time to love others, and to genuinely show that you care. I know I have been blessed for it. And I know you can be too, and find the happiness that I find. I will leave you with the wise words of Henry Ward Beecher~

"Of all the earthly music, that which reaches farthest into Heaven is the beating of a truly loving heart." :)

This is the time of my life

It is so incredible how fast life can pass you by. It reminds me every single day that I cant afford to take one second for granted. I look back over the years and realize the relationships that may have slowly slipped away. And how I wish they could come back to the time that they were in their prime. But sometimes those relationships are only intended for a season. Yet, those times can have more powerful influences on our heart and soul than we ever knew possible.

It is incredible what starting college can do to a person. I have only been in the official college world for about a week, and I am already seeing a transformation, once again, in who I am. And who I am becoming. Junior high and highschool were all about cliques. As you went on, everyone knew every body. But college is so much different than that. When everyone walks in on the first day of shcool, every one is brand new. No one is quite sure what to expect. And everyone is searching for the opportunity to find a new friend. To feel loved, and accepted.

There was one time this past week, where I decided it was finally time to introduce myself to a young lady who is in almost all of my music classes. I thought I was doing a small, and simple task, that didnt mean much. Later that class period we took time to publicly thank others who had touched our lives for the better. That very same girl chose me. She thanked me for the simple task of introducing myself, and making her acquaintance, and was overly thankful for that. It made me realize how much we all truly have to give. And that we can make a difference.

I have already met so many incredible people this past week at school, and I am seriously so thrilled to continue in the path that I have already created. Choir is so amazing, and I love making music with others who I know share the same passions as I do. I cannot wait to start vocal jazz tomorrow and come back to a place where I feel at home. Singing jazz makes me feel at home. The home that was such a major part of me the past two years at Mesa high. I love my family. I love my friends. I love my Jazz (hehe). But most of all, I love my Heavenly Father and my Savior. I'm so thankful for every day, and for every breath I take. Because life is not measured by the amount of breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away.

Keep Holding on, there are angels all around us

I know that there have been times when people say "there are angels all around you." I believe that full heartedly. I will never forget the conference talk by Jeffrey R. Holland which spoke of the tongue of Angels. And the impact that they have in our every day lives. He spoke of angels who are unseen, yet leave us feeling their presence. He also mentioned that there are angels all around us who are in plain sight. But sometimes we dont take the time to acknowledge that they associate with us, or are right under our noses.

I have true angels in my life. Both seen and unseen. There are times when I am offered protection, or have a quick prompting to do something, or suddenly feel comforted when there is no one around, and I know that it is the unseen angels. I know that Heavenly Father has angels that attend us and comfort and help us, as we live our lives. We are His children, and He loves us, and wants us to feel as much comfort and love as humanly possible. I have angels in my life, who are seen. They surround me, and remind me why I am here. Why life is so important. They are there to teach me, and to understand the things that I cant handle alone. I know that I have been blessed with angels all around me, to help me in the moments when I feel alone. They are truly gifts from my Heavenly Father, and mean so much more to me than anything the world has to offer.

I love my angels without wings, and I do not know what I would do without them. You make every day of my life beautiful, and worth breathing, and I see His image reflected in your eyes. I love you my angels.