In learning you will teach..in teaching you will learn.

So I was recently called to be a beehive advisor in my ward. I was so nervous when I was first extended the call, but I willingly accepted. My initial thoughts were, how on earth am I supposed to teach these girls?? I'm barely a girl myself! Well, today the spirit testified to me, just how I am supposed to teach. I am supposed to teach by truth. By testimony. By simply what I know in my heart to be true. Today I bore my testimony in Young womens to all the girls and I told them this, "I accepted this calling, because I know that everything you learn in young womens is absolutely true. If I did not have that 100% knowledge, then I would not have accepted the calling.That is why I am here. To testify of the truthfulness of these teachings to you."

I know I was called to testify to those girls, because I was just barely one of them. I know that they can relate to me, and that it is such a blessing that I have the opportunity to teach. I know that my Heavenly Father has helped prepare me over the years, for this calling. I know that no matter how bizarre it is that an 18 year old who graduated 2 months ago,got called to be a young womens leader, that I can find strength and courage. Because I know that Heavenly Father will not call me to do anything that I cannot handle. He knows my strength, so much better than I do. And He has sent His son to live and die for me, and to bring about an atonement that can help me progress towards the kind of person that I have always wanted to be.

I know that this gospel is true. I know it with all of my heart. I am so excited to testify of its truthfulness to those beehive girls. I am so excited that in teaching, that I am going to learn so much more. I cannot wait for the day when I will be able to receive the blessings that I learn about so often, such as entering the temple and being sealed for time and all eternity. Such as being a wife and mother, and raising a family in righteousness. That is my number one goal, above all else. And I pray that I will live worthy to receive those things. I love my Savior, I love my Heavenly Father, I love my family, I love all of my friends so dearly. And I hope to continue to show how much I love you, and how much I want to serve my Heavenly Father, no matter where life takes me. :)

On my way

So I havent posted on this blog since my junior year of highschool..hmmmm. It is very safe to say that it has been quite some time. I have now graduated from highschool, and I am preparing for college. I received a scholarship for vocal performance at Chandler Gilbert Community college, and I am very thrilled that I am going to be involved in so much music this upcoming year.

I have been on quite a journey since my junior year, that much is certain. Times of trial, times of fear, times of aching. But also times of joy, times of laughter, times of gladness, and times of love. Much has happened to me since I have last written. I cannot possibly recall every event that has commenced since then, but I will tell you this..

I have had a change of heart. I am no longer who I used to be. Starting my senior year, I was scared and worried little girl. My best friends were gone for college, and I was left feeling like I could never ever make any other friends who would understand like they did. I was so sure that nothing else in my life felt real any more. I slowly shut down. I brought myself to a place where I was more miserable than I have been in my entire life. The world was dark, the world was dim, and I couldnt find a reason to keep going on. Until one night when I snapped.

That night I dropped heavily to my knees, and began to pray. I prayed harder than I have ever prayed in my entire life. I sobbed for hours praying that Heavenly Father would forgive me for being stubborn and hard hearted, and that He would grace my life with joy that I had been missing for so long. After a very long while, my sobs slowly came to a stop. And there was peace. I felt as if someone were in the room with me, and as if there were someone there who was lifting me off of the floor. I know in my heart that my Savior was watching over me that night. That my Elder Brother, Jesus the Christ, knew my pain and my grief. But He was there with me, holding me close and telling me to be scared and lonely no more.

From that moment on there became a change in my life. I began to feel like something amazing was coming around the corner. And I was right. Through my faith, and the goodness of my Heavenly Father, He gave me the confidence and will power to step out and to open my heart to let others in. Needless to say, from that point on, everything worked itself out the way that it was intended. My Heavenly Father has sent me friendships in the past year that I cant even fathom living without now.





The friendships I've received in the past year have taught me even more clearly that charity is the center of all happiness. That it is only through thinking of others, and loving with all your heart, that you can be truly happy. Life is very fragile, so take every opportunity you can to get to know others and find the beauty that they have to offer. And sometimes if you're lucky, you will find a new true friend who you cant believe you lived without your whole life. I know I have experienced it first hand, and I am so grateful for that.

Now here I am, looking towards the future. Here I am, a poor soon to be college student and I dont have much more than a penny to my name! A student with an unknown future. I must say that every day I find myself thinking more about worthwhile things, verses the futile thoughts I had in highschool. I know for a fact that all through highschool that it was all about the hotties. The attractive boys. THe ones who may run 2ft deep on the inside, but are super cute. I find myself falling into a new way of thinking... and I hope it eventually leads me to a new way of life. I find myself thinking about the kind of man I want to marry someday. How much I want him to be a straight arrow in the gospel, and someone who honors their priesthood, and loves their family with all their heart, and never ceases to teach them that they are children of God, and they are so precious in His eyes.



I know that if I hope to marry someone of that calliber, that it is my time to become like them. To be the wonderful things that I want to see in my husband. I will not live in hypocrisy. I want to be the kind of person, that I want to marry someday. These days.. nothing else really matters but rededicating myself to the gospel, service, and striving to love others with all my heart. Everything else feels like its slowly melting away. Although I have many faults..too many to mention, I know that nevertheless I am on my way. That I am now heading towards a future that can be as bright as I make it out to be. As long as I work hard, have faith, and trust in my Heavenly Father's loving care. It is in that loving care that I have trusted in the past year and a half. And it is that loving care which I will continue to trust.For my Savior is the light that shines through, every day of my life. Here are some of the moments which I have seen the goodness of His loving heart.

Crazy Crazy CRAZY!!!!

So my life has consisted of nothing short of madness!! Haha my life is so busy these days, but Im loving every second of it! Here are two pictures of some of the people I hold dearest to my heart. These are the kids who practice with me day in and day out to try and make Seussical the Musical a success!!! (Which will play from April 15th-18th and you should ALL BE THERE!!!) Hope you enjoy these really fun, cute pictures :]

Girls Night All State Birthday Disneyworld Hike of Death Extravaganza!

So for ANYONE who still believes that my blog still exists..thank you very much for still waiting for a new post. As you have probably already guessed by my infamous title, I've got a LOT of catching up to do.

Well first on the list is girls night..um im not gonna really think up an explanation for our appearance.. so just know that girls will be girls :]

Then that same weeked I attended the All State Jazz and Show Concert and four very cute people from Mesa represented us including these cutefaces right here :] Sadly one picture is very tiny for some reason.. but I love it none the less.

Then it was Nicks Birthday! The big boy turned fifteen! Wow he's growin up way too fast and definitely is waaaay taller than me now.

Then my parents who had surprised us at Christmastime.. took me and Nick to WALT DISNEY WORLD! It was intensely awesome but i cant post every single picture :]

Mmm turkey leg :]

Then Lastly but not least on our whatever holiday that was where we had monday off of school, haha we went hiking as a group of friends. It was challenging, yet an adventure. Haha i lost my "SOLE" on the mountain.

As well as losing my "sole" on the trail we also had rips of death along the way :]

So yes, we are not really looking at the camera but does this picture remind ANYONE else of enchanted? Haha.. i love it.

Well that just about covers it..im also in Seussical the Musical at Mesa! Im way excited and our show goes up in April.

Life gave me lemonade..

So at this point in time life is simply Beautiful!!! I cant help but think how beautiful everything is and how rich it is to spend time with family, party with my friends, laugh til your sides hurt, eat til you cant anymore, sleep, and just smile all along the way :]

So first off I over winter break I was able to do achieve what so many thought was impossible...

I GOT MY DRIVERS LICENSE!

It took me a long while to finally get it down but on my seventeenth birthday I got it! It was so exciting!

Then, My baby, Brinky, turned four!! I can hardly believe it! I still remember walking around the hospital with Biddy the night before she was born. She has grown up so much since that day and I want her to know that I love her so much :] I love you Brinky Dink! Happy Birthday Big Girl!

Well Folks, for now this is a pretty short lil post! So i apologize for that! But i promise as soon as i get around to it that I will share many many many good times with you from Girls Night to Walt Disney World Florida!!!!

Peace love chicken grease!

Christmas Christmas time was here..

So basically my Christmas Break was nothing short of Amazing!!!

Between the parties, the hugs, the kisses, the Fam Damily, the friends, and the love of the season.. there is nothing i would change about it.

Christmas is a time of love, good cheer, and hope. It is absolutely my Favorite time of the year.

First there is the love of the season. One of my friends, Aka peppermint patty who graduated last year, got Married just before Christmas. She looked so beautiful and Im so happy to see the example that she is setting for me to also go to the Temple someday.

Then..just before Christmas, who should we find but SANTY CLAWS HIMSELF! He was ridin down 32nd Street in his sleigh and we pulled him over to take a picture! KIDS: Dont you ever believe what the big kids tell you about Santa not being real! "They sit on a throne of lies! They smell like beef and cheese..and dont even smell like Santa!"

Franky got in the Christmas Spirit by sporting his classy Holiday bow.

For any of you who still rejoice in the Disney Princesses, you can be happy with me for this! For Christmas I got The Little Mermaid 2. Which means that I have All Three Little Mermaids on DVD!!! And if any of you know me at all this is pure bliss :]

Our lovely Yule Log :} This is definitely on our HD tv :}

Brinky Dinky diggin some Ice outta the soda bucket! Lots of cool toys for both the young and old..

Then there was New Years! There was a huge New years Party on my birthday and it was an absolute blast!

I apologize buddy, but this moment was priceles! So there were hommemade cheesecakes..and one was left laying around..and it was positioned perfectly where some dude decided to sit down.. and well, you do the math! :]

My girls are so funny!! They decided to give me a "Girls night" in a box for my birthday! This had a bottle of Martinelli's, a box of chocolates, the DVD of EVERAFTER which I have yet to watch, a can of pinapple (so Maddi can visit..if you dont know this story, then just dont worry about it.), and last but not least this Radical pair of boxers!!! Haha they definitely have a huge bling bling car on the front and say "Its A BLING THING!" Pretty much girls..Girls Night in a box= AWESOMETOWN. Thank you for that :]

Me and my Home-skillet biscuits :]

As you can see..my Holiday Season was immensely amazing.

As for my New Years Resolutions?

Well, Im happy to say that I wrote nine out of the ten songs that i wanted by the end of 2008. Im pretty happy about them and with a few more songs hope to record an album. :]

New Goals you say???..

Well, I have resoluted (a word?) to:

Exercise..way more!

Eat not so much crud.. ya know, still snack here and there, but not destine myself for heart failure.

Record an album for all of my friends and family.

Read the Book of Mormon at least once all the way thru.

Tell my family I love them more.

Show more Christlike love to everyone i know.

Get down on my knees and into the scriptures more.

And lastly..love myself for who I am. I think there are those who can testify that a lot of times i will flip out on myself for being stressed or think i just dont have what it takes at the end of the day. But Im so grateful for my family and friends who never ever cease to love me and never ever give up on this silly, stubborn, seventeen year old.

I Love you all so much. Thanks for the laughs, the game nights, the Christmas Carols, the Fro yo, the Sisterhood movies, the sleepovers..and everything else that makes my life that much more meaningful.

Just winding down..

So i dont know if anyone still reads this darn blog anymore..for i have failed terribly at keeping up with the happenings of my insane life. But i shall try and catch you up a lil bit..

First of all i have not even talked bout Turkey Day!! The food was nummy as always and was very very excited to play with fam..especially these two..!!!! :] (ps i expect an award of some kind for these shots! They're priceless!! Not bad for an amateur eh?)

Baby Ally.. prettiest blue eyes ever!In this one Al's givin a true model face..it kills me. This little girl isn't even two yet! Oh and do others appreciate the clouds in the back and the contrast of the bright grass? I love it!

Brinky Dink and Auntie! Once again..the bright colors and the pretty sky makes me love this shot!

Anywho..after the turkey was eaten..the party really begun!

Me, mom, Biddy, and Aunt Jana teamed up to go on a Black Friday Shopping trip of all shopping trips. We were very successful I must say, draggin our little sorry bodies out of bed and gettin out at 3:45 :]

Then there was Vespers! Or our traditional Religious Choral concert at Mesa High. Me, and one of my newest best buds, Jenny McCauley sang "I heard him come," together! It was very successful and such an amazing experience to sing it with her and share of the spirit of that song with others. There is a link on the side of this blog titled "i heard him come" if you wish to watch it. Just make sure my playlist is turned off beforehand. :]

Then last but not least Seussical the Musical is coming to Mesa High!! We will be auditioning the first day back to school and I am absolutle extatic! I"m shooting for either "JOJO" a young child, who is a crazy thinker and uses their "thinks" to create the show. Or "Gertrude McFuzz". A little awkward bird who is madly in love with Horton the Elephant. :]

School gets out very soon! Im way excited for playtime. Love you all!