It is so incredible how fast life can pass you by. It reminds me every single day that I cant afford to take one second for granted. I look back over the years and realize the relationships that may have slowly slipped away. And how I wish they could come back to the time that they were in their prime. But sometimes those relationships are only intended for a season. Yet, those times can have more powerful influences on our heart and soul than we ever knew possible.
It is incredible what starting college can do to a person. I have only been in the official college world for about a week, and I am already seeing a transformation, once again, in who I am. And who I am becoming. Junior high and highschool were all about cliques. As you went on, everyone knew every body. But college is so much different than that. When everyone walks in on the first day of shcool, every one is brand new. No one is quite sure what to expect. And everyone is searching for the opportunity to find a new friend. To feel loved, and accepted.
There was one time this past week, where I decided it was finally time to introduce myself to a young lady who is in almost all of my music classes. I thought I was doing a small, and simple task, that didnt mean much. Later that class period we took time to publicly thank others who had touched our lives for the better. That very same girl chose me. She thanked me for the simple task of introducing myself, and making her acquaintance, and was overly thankful for that. It made me realize how much we all truly have to give. And that we can make a difference.
I have already met so many incredible people this past week at school, and I am seriously so thrilled to continue in the path that I have already created. Choir is so amazing, and I love making music with others who I know share the same passions as I do. I cannot wait to start vocal jazz tomorrow and come back to a place where I feel at home. Singing jazz makes me feel at home. The home that was such a major part of me the past two years at Mesa high. I love my family. I love my friends. I love my Jazz (hehe). But most of all, I love my Heavenly Father and my Savior. I'm so thankful for every day, and for every breath I take. Because life is not measured by the amount of breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
I know that there have been times when people say "there are angels all around you." I believe that full heartedly. I will never forget the conference talk by Jeffrey R. Holland which spoke of the tongue of Angels. And the impact that they have in our every day lives. He spoke of angels who are unseen, yet leave us feeling their presence. He also mentioned that there are angels all around us who are in plain sight. But sometimes we dont take the time to acknowledge that they associate with us, or are right under our noses.
I have true angels in my life. Both seen and unseen. There are times when I am offered protection, or have a quick prompting to do something, or suddenly feel comforted when there is no one around, and I know that it is the unseen angels. I know that Heavenly Father has angels that attend us and comfort and help us, as we live our lives. We are His children, and He loves us, and wants us to feel as much comfort and love as humanly possible. I have angels in my life, who are seen. They surround me, and remind me why I am here. Why life is so important. They are there to teach me, and to understand the things that I cant handle alone. I know that I have been blessed with angels all around me, to help me in the moments when I feel alone. They are truly gifts from my Heavenly Father, and mean so much more to me than anything the world has to offer.
I love my angels without wings, and I do not know what I would do without them. You make every day of my life beautiful, and worth breathing, and I see His image reflected in your eyes. I love you my angels.
Monday, August 2, 2010
So I was recently called to be a beehive advisor in my ward. I was so nervous when I was first extended the call, but I willingly accepted. My initial thoughts were, how on earth am I supposed to teach these girls?? I'm barely a girl myself! Well, today the spirit testified to me, just how I am supposed to teach. I am supposed to teach by truth. By testimony. By simply what I know in my heart to be true. Today I bore my testimony in Young womens to all the girls and I told them this, "I accepted this calling, because I know that everything you learn in young womens is absolutely true. If I did not have that 100% knowledge, then I would not have accepted the calling.That is why I am here. To testify of the truthfulness of these teachings to you."
I know I was called to testify to those girls, because I was just barely one of them. I know that they can relate to me, and that it is such a blessing that I have the opportunity to teach. I know that my Heavenly Father has helped prepare me over the years, for this calling. I know that no matter how bizarre it is that an 18 year old who graduated 2 months ago,got called to be a young womens leader, that I can find strength and courage. Because I know that Heavenly Father will not call me to do anything that I cannot handle. He knows my strength, so much better than I do. And He has sent His son to live and die for me, and to bring about an atonement that can help me progress towards the kind of person that I have always wanted to be.
I know that this gospel is true. I know it with all of my heart. I am so excited to testify of its truthfulness to those beehive girls. I am so excited that in teaching, that I am going to learn so much more. I cannot wait for the day when I will be able to receive the blessings that I learn about so often, such as entering the temple and being sealed for time and all eternity. Such as being a wife and mother, and raising a family in righteousness. That is my number one goal, above all else. And I pray that I will live worthy to receive those things. I love my Savior, I love my Heavenly Father, I love my family, I love all of my friends so dearly. And I hope to continue to show how much I love you, and how much I want to serve my Heavenly Father, no matter where life takes me. :)